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Trust more.. Worry less

So far this new season in my life has been the best season I've walked in. But it has also been the most stressful and questionable. Why? Because of myself. Because of my self-doubts and my lack of trust. I am thriving but my finances are not and I find that most of my prayer time lately has been me reminding God of when my bills are due, how much they are, how much the late fees are, etc. It is as if I am reminding God of a deadline I have put on Him. I sit there and think of ways He could move in my life. "God, if you speak to this person.." "God, if you do this thing at this time.." "Hey God, just reminding you that this bill is coming up and if you do this at this time I could pay it.." You see, God has told me to do one thing: sit still. But the control freak that I am decides to figure everything out for Him.

Isaiah 40:14 "Has the Lord ever needed anyone's advice? Does he need instruction about what is good? Did someone teach him what is right or show him the path of justice?"

I am reflecting on that verse and laughing at myself. Why did I ever think that God needed my advice? As far as I'm concerned, things are MUCH better when they don't go my way. 

But how many of us do that? How many of us see our troubles with family, finances, relationships, and so on, and we begin to give God advice on how to do the miracle. Why do we take control? 

Isaiah 40:27 "O Jacob, how can you say the Lord does not see your troubles? O Israel, how can you say God ignores your rights?"

Sometimes I forget. Sometimes I forget that God knows and cares for my troubles. So, I try to solve them, remind Him, and give Him my two cents on what should be done. 

But who can compare to our Lord? Who can do what my God can do?

Isaiah 40:28 "Have you never heard? Have you never understood? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of all the earth. He never grows weak or weary. No one can measure the depths of his understanding."

This is what I have quickly been learning:

  • Trust God- worry less. 
  • Sit still- control less.
  • Find strength in His peace.
It is in these moments that Christ is calling for my trust in Him to be on a level that I have never seen. God has never failed me, and He never will. But my little trust causes me to forget that. So, I'm giving that up. I am giving up my desire to control the situations I was never meant to control. I am giving up my desire to give Him advice. I am giving up the constant cycle of figuring out His miracle on my deadline. I am replacing all of that with trusting Him completely. Something pretty amazing happens when you decide to trust Christ completely: Isaiah 40:31 "But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint."

So, here is to my new season of complete trust in God, despite what I may or may not see. Because God is always at work behind the scenes.

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