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For the rest of my life.

When I dropped out of beauty school I made the promise to live a fully obedient life to Christ. When I decided to leave a beautiful life in LA and move to Sacramento, I made the promise to put down my plans and to always go when and where God tells me to go.

Proverbs 16:9 "We can make our plans but the Lord determines our steps."

People ask have asked me what I want to do with my life or what is my plan, and I never knew fully how to answer that question because my answer was never a generic "pastor" or "stay at home wife" or any one specific thing. But I have finally came to the realization of what I do want to do for the rest of my life and that is walk in full obedience to Christ, whatever that may look like and wherever that may take me. If God directs me to be a marketing director in Sacramento, I will be a marketing director in Sacramento, if God calls me to preach to young girls all over the world, I will go preach to young girls all over the world, if God were to call me to Bakersfield to sit in my parents living room and blog, I would go to Bakersfield and type until my fingers fell off.

No matter how terrifying it is for me to know that I may never plant my roots in one place for the rest of my life, I trust in what I am doing because I know at the end of the day, if I am being obedient to God, I am fulfilling my call.

I have seen what it is to live a life where I live out my plans over living out what God has called me to do, and I can say that is a life I never want to live again. In no way is it easy-street by doing it God's way- in fact, it is incredibly challenging as I have to search my heart daily, see and confront my hurts and weaknesses, but it is by far the most rewarding.

In just this short season of living fully dependent on the voice of God I have:

Found my purpose
Acts 1:8 "But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you. And you will be my witnesses, telling people about me everywhere- in Jerusalem, throughout Judea, in Samaria, and to the ends of the earth."

No matter what I am doing, whether it is serving tables at The Cheesecake Factory or serving in the church, God gives me an opportunity to share about Him. I don't have to be in a particular city or environment for me to fulfill a verse that was pressed on my heart at 15 years old.

Found my identity
Isaiah 42:1 "Look at my servant, whom I strengthen. He is my chosen one, who pleases me. I have put my Spirit upon him. He will bring justice to the nations."

I am not only a daughter of Christ, but I am chosen. God saw the MOST unqualified person fit to do what I do. I have learned that who I am and where I can go is not because of my education level, not because of my name, not because of my job, but because God chose me.

Found my worth
Jeremiah 29:11 "'For I know the plans I have for you,' says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.'"

I am worthy of what is good. I am worthy of things that give me hope and a future. I know that no matter what may come my way- as long as I am obeying Christ, He will turn it around for my good, and I will settle for nothing less than what is of God and what is good in His sight.

Life will throw me curve-balls. I may not be in my dream city, I may not be married to my dream man, I may not be where I want to be, but if I am walking in full obedience to Christ I know I will be happy and fulfilled.

All I want to do with my life is walk in full, fearless, and undeniable faith and obedience. If I continue to do that, no matter where I end up, I know I am fulfilling my call.

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